rapt attention

I just read an article about trying to focus attention on one thing at a time and how this is actually useful to you but I also kept getting distracted by a butterfly outside and the song on the stereo and it seemed as though I would never actually complete the article advocated meditation and concentration on a single task for 90 minutes which is all well and good but who has 90 minutes of time to simply concentrate well I guess I did this morning but then there was that butterfly and the music and then even within the article there were all these links to other things like books which made me look things up further on Amazon and oh-my-heck did you realize that they just announced a bigger screened ebook reader that could actually allow you to see full magazine sized pages and I wondered if that would be something I could load all of my books onto and maybe that would be worth the $500 (if I had $500) except surely there will be something new coming along right after this that could have color and a way to record your own things (maybe like random blogged thoughts?) so that you could really multitask except that is exactly what the article -- right, the article, what I was talking about -- was saying that I can't do but there I was doing it just not really very well and without any real success so I decided that I needed some more coffee and a banana and that I needed to sit down and write because after all I have about 90 minutes of time to devote to something except that that was about 60 minutes ago when I realized that perfect amount of timing so maybe I'll go pick out some more music and -- shit -- I also have those receipts to organize and send back to get reimbursed and it's so sunny outside and I actually really want to weed and clear out the brush so that we can plant the garden but I can't forget about the talk I'm giving next week but I was also right now this instant supposed to still be in the desert perhaps making one last loop around the hoodoos before we packed back into the car and headed home but I'm already home at least without any more illness but always waiting for another shoe (or germ) to drop while G. is on antibiotics which have kicked in enough that she was able to go to school today along with A. and K. but it's a short day so maybe we'll all do stuff outside this afternoon so I should do some writing right now which is, I guess, what I'm doing right now only I can't remember exactly what it was I was supposed to be writing about.

Oh. Right. Focus. I'll start over.